okay, well.. i can't go to sleep for one && i miss dustin ohhh so f*n much! like i just want to talk to him sooo badly! gosh.. why did i have to tell them i had to go to sleep early.. like i told preston that && we were like okay.. ill ttu tomorrow.. soo i was like mm kay! && then dustin didnt wanna talk to me earlier and i was super pissed && i'm still kind of mad that he didn't want to talk to me earlier but whateva.. i miss him soo fuckin much.. like if i could just hear the sound of his voice or somethin .. it would make me feel somewhat better, but not much! when he called me back after i told preston i had to go to bed it was probably one of the sweetest things he has eva done.. i was just like speechless it was like the perfect aww moment.. it was too incredibly cute.. i loved it soo much!! he didnt even say much eitha, all he said was " goodnight baby, i love you", and i replied and then he said,"bye bye" ... and omgosh.. i was just like awwa.. it was soo cute && sweet && omgosh.. i love dustin ohh soo much.. he doesnt even know.. he doesnt know how much that meant to me for him to call me back after not wanting to talk to me .. i was still a little pissed, not a lot but a little, but it was just too cute && too special to even think about it.. omgah.. he means soo much to me.. i mean i really think he's the one for me.. && it feels soo incredible to know that! if we were old enough, which we arent, but if we were, i would soo marry him.. he's too special && oh soo perfect.. i would absolutely LOVE knowing he's the one i would spend the rest of my life with, have a family with, say i do to, && live eternity knowing i would love him forever.. the only thing standing in our way of being perfectly happy, is probably my daddy, but he's gotta learn to get to know dustin && like him b/c he's most definately not going  anywhere .. && he's going to have to deal with it b/c everyone likes him so why wouldnt daddy... im still not tired.. im not gonna be able to go sleep unless i talk to dustin, but i really need to b/c i gotta get up supa early.. well i think its supa early.. 11:15 AM .. purty damn early for me.. but i just miss dustin too much && i wanna be where he is right now gah.. i absolutely cant wait to see him mm tuesday? hopefully.. && i sure as hell wish it would be longa than an hour and maybe 40 minutes.. thats f*d up fo sho.. idk tho.. but ill still get to see him but i hate the fact that the only place i get to see him is at the movies.. which is lame b/c all we do is eitha watch it or make out.. b/c you can't like talk but you can talk.. but its rude && stuff.. not sayin i dont mind makin out with him or watchin the movie.. but im not gonna have enough money to go see a movie every damn week you know? and even if i went to the moose club after it opened up that would be even more money coming out of my parents pockets.. && they dont work just so i can see dustin .. only IF daddy wouldn't be soo damn stubborn , get to know him, && like dustin.. we wouldnt be spendin all this money! he could be over here or me over there... but thank you lord that i start drivin in uhhh 2 months?? yeah still way too long ..&& too many movies being watched but as long as i get to spend time with my baby && as long as i get to talk to him wheneva i feel the need.. ill be sooo supa happy! i love him soo f*n much.. he doesnt even know! he shouldnt eva question the trust in our relationship b/c i wont .. im going to believe everything he tells me && he should believe everything i tell him soo.. hope to god everything turns out perfect b/c he's too special && important to me for me to lose over something stupid..

*i'll love you forever baby, && i'll be with you always*

dustin hollimon, you mean the world to me, && i dont want that to ever  change! i love you with all my heart && soul && nothing && no one will change that, or make me doubt it..... i love you ohhh*soo much baby!

.. baby im amazed by you ..

Currently Listening Take My Breath Away/Fly By Jessica Simpson see related

okay well.. idk where to start.. im not in the best of moods right now, but my mom fuckin hates me... like i care as long as i have the most important person in my life still talkin to me.. ill be okay.. but anyways yeah.. im not perfect && everything i do isnt eitha && she still hasnt figured it out soo she slaps me && think its gonna help.. hell naw.. what a fuckin bitch huh? but im not gonna worry about that .. im just gonna live the rest of my fat ass life happy with my dustin.. he's all the matters.. but yeah mm kay well i feel like gettin everything out about the way i feel about him.. its gonna take a while .. but he's my everything for one.. i dont know what i'd do without him.. when im with him, it feels like the rest of the world doesnt matter .. i'm just like the happiest and/or luckiest girl eva because i have him .. && he's all mine && nothing or no one will EVER change that! but chyeah, when he kisses me or says he loves me to me, i get chills && i just feel like everything in my world is right && i'm where im supposed to be && i'm with the one im suposed to be with.. like i know my mom is iffy about him && my dads like oh hell no.. it all doesnt matter to me.. it should matter to them tho.. if they saw how much he makes me happy && feel special .. they should at least look into us b/c they always say everything they do in this world is to make me happy.. sure as hell dont seem like it right now.. but whateva.. i love you baby... nothing will ever change that* i dont think i could EVER do anything to hurt dustin tho.. it would just hurt me 10 times more than it hurt him... if i like ever made him cry .. i would just like fall to pieces.. idk what it is about him.. but i love every single thing about him.. i am just mega happy b/c he is ohh soo fine && all fuckin mine.. if he's pissed i am too .. if he's sad i'm more sad than he is.. i think that made sense but whatever .. i talk about him all the damn time... i even talk about him to myself if im like lookin in the mirror or somethin .. lame i know, but soo true.. i dont want to sound obsessed but its just the way i feel about him && its all soo true he says he loves me more than i love him but i just really dont know... im mega happy that he takes this relationship seriously .. b/c i know i for sure do .. i feel mature when im with him.. i know i can be immature but i can be mature at times too, but i just feel like a big girl when im with him hehe && when i start driving which i hope i pass b/c im soo super scared that im gonna fail :[ but that'll just top off my maturity.. ill be in a serious relationship with someone i love ohhh soo f*n much && i'll be old enough to have a job && drive myself && drive dustin around since he's too lame to get his learners .. but i gotta admit, i kinda had a thing for dustin since i first saw him.. even tho i didnt know him its kinda like in middle school when i had that huge crush on david russell but i never talked to him .. just first time i saw him i was hooked... same with dustin but the impact was like times 1 million .. he's like the perfect guy for me... the only thing that bothers me .. well it doesnt really bother me, but im just scared im gonna do somethin wrong && he'll get soo freakin pissed at me && never talk to me .... the longest i could prob go without talkin to him .. idk.. not even a day.. soo im tryin to do everything right so one i can stay with him foreva and keep him happy b/c i soo dont want anything to go wrong at this point in time.. i dont want anything to go wrong btw us like eva! he's the first thing i think about when i wake up, the only thing (minus the minor details) i think about during the day, and the last thing i think about before i go to sleep.. even if it is perverted.. i'm still thinkin about him hehe .. i think we belong togetha .. i just know, as long as i'm with him.. ill be safe && i'll feel ohhh soo right .. i love you always &&  i want to be with you *forever*  .. he's always like you dont need to wear make up b/c you look good without out it.. i only wear it b/c i want him to like come back for more you know? like i dont want him to be like eww if she looks like that idk.. i think its cute that he thinks im pretty.. i dont think i am.. my mom deff doesnt.. im a fat ass that will never look like her b/c she is supposedly the most beautiful that god has put on this earth.. yeah okay.. got you beat biotch.. but yeah i just dont want dustin to think im grosss or what not && if i dont feel like i look pretty i'd feel like maybe he wouldnt want to come back for more .. like i know what i mean but idk if anyone else would .. it's just i dont want him to ever doubt me b/c i havent yet doubted him && dont plan on ever doubting him .. he's got some sexy little muscles and he's just plain sexy hot fine whatever .. i know ill deff be comin back for more.. soo i guess im just tryin to keep up with him.. he has the cutest smile .. i mean my gah .. everytime he smiles.. which is a hell of a lot.. i just want to like kiss him .. its too cute to resist.. a lot of things he does just makes me want to like idk jump on him and be like grrrrrrrr && go for it haha he brings out the best in me.. i cant be mean to him.. if i am ill be like omgosh im jk im soo jk or somethin.. like i cant be mean to him.. he's to sweet && sentimental .. he prob dont even know what that means.. but itll be okay i just want him to know that whatever he says looks like does etc wont change the way i feel about him && nothin ever could b/c this is soo true but yeah once again, i love you always &&  i want to be with you *forever* .. you take my breath away && when you say i love you.. my heart stops or skips a beat.. idk but it does when you hold me .. i feel like nothin could ever come in between us and take me away from you or you away from me b/c it's soo right .. *mwauh i love you dustin wayne hollimon

Currently Listening Don't Cha By Pussy Cat Dolls actually im listenin to Stickwitu see related

I FUCKING LOVE YOU DUSTIN HOLLIMON!!ALWAYS WILL && ILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU BABY *MWAUH

Currently Listening The Pink Panther Check On It by Beyonce ft Slim Thugg see related

omgosh! its been forever~* i've been a little whore lately but its been so amazing so far! but its way late & ill most deff have to write tomorrow or somethin! but ill try to write asap! tomorrows new years ever.. know what that means boys & booze! hell yeah! anyways im stuck on wyatt!! he's so beautiful! lol he's perfect & half puerto rican like omg! theyre soo sexy! lol anyways.. he has my ring & im confused but ill deff write soon! i'm partyin with anissa tomorrow! hopefully! maybe ill see alex! ahh hes got a gorgeous body and eyes! but im tired as fuck! im writing later! peace bitches~

.. you have me wrapped around your finger .. figurativel & literally